hey dear diary
I'm more mad at me than i have ever been
I just keep being cruel to people who are like the golden shining stars in this messy world around me
I'm afraid that i might fail them and therefore i dont feel like i deserve and thing
I don't know what's gotten into me, what's wrong with me
Here dear journal i stand before you promising that i will try to fix it
It's not wise to ignore what valueable things you own just cuz you want more
They only way to convince God to give you more is to show him that you deserve any thing more
So i will be good, not to get what i dont have, but to show him i love waht i already have
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I know that in the morning now
I see ascending light upon a hill
Although I am broken, my heart is untamed, still